Everest

Working out is my Everest.

I hate working out.

Which makes things difficult when I want to get fit and toned and HELLO hot hot hot….for my honeymoon.

I have never been naked in front of a man. I have never seen a man butt naked right in front of my eyes. Because, I'm a virgin.

No, I'm not crazy. No, I'm not Mormon. Actually, I'm a Christian. I am a 23 year old virgin that is saved and sold out for God.

I decided long ago that I was going to wait until marriage to have sex. Although many may disagree (and many will agree) sex is meant to be had in marriage, the way God created it. I know these days that does make me sound nuts. But whatever you think reading this, waiting was my choice, and I wanted to honor God with my body and in all my relationships. But the big day is only a few months away.

Let me tell you that I am EXCITED.

Like I want to jump up and down screaming.

Because not only do I get to marry my best friend and the love of my life, but I get to partake in one of the most beautiful things God has ever created. Sex is a gift, and I can't wait to enjoy it! Especially with my hubby.

With that being said…I hate working out. I really do. I don't enjoy it. The idea of running literally sounds like straight torture.

But it's been awhile since I got serious about taking care of my body. I was a dancer in high school, I was alright about working out in college, but I wasn't serious about it. And while I could get away with my eating habits and not working out (thank God for good genes) I don't want to skate by on it.

I read somewhere that your body in your 20's is going to be a good indicator for what your body will be like longterm. Yikes.

Now let me get something straight. I don't think I'm fat. I don't even think I'm overweight. Most days I'm totally fine with my body. But then there are those days that make me want to cry…I blame the shark attack on my ovaries once a month.

But in the end it all comes down to doing this for me, doing it to honor God because he didn't give me a body to just totally destroy and stuff with junk all the time…and of course to give my hubby something good to look at. I know it's not all about looks, and I know my fiancé loves me and that includes every part of my body (even the parts he hasn't seen!). But I want to look hot for him. It's as simple as that.

And NO. There is nothing wrong with a wife wanting to look sexy for her husband.

If you think there is…you might want to do a serious study on Song of Songs…just saying.

I will be posting my progress, my workouts, food stuff, tips, inspiration…and if I'm feeling brave maybe a picture or two of myself.

Let's face it, as a lazy girl and a girl who wants badly to not be lazy…I'm going to need all of the motivation I can get.

One last thing before I go…

I know there is a good chance that girls who have body image issues may come across my blog. I want to make it very clear that this is not a thinspiration kind of blog. I don't advocate starving yourself or working out to the point of exhaustion. (I hate working out…soooo) I say this with all the love in my heart…but if you are one of those girls, get help. We all have our stuff. And just so you don't think I'm all self-righteous and high and mighty…I have issues too.

Body image is not one of them, but I do have forgiveness issues and lots of baggage because of my parents divorce. I see someone about it. And I can definitely say it is one of the best things I have ever done and the healthiest things too. It may not have been a physical issue but it was a heart issue. And those usually lead to bigger issues as well. We all need a little help sometimes. There is nothing wrong with that. But thinking you are fat when you're not is a problem.

God created you which makes you beautiful.

If you get anything from this blog I hope you at least remember that.

xoxo,
     S